The best word to describe my spirit growing up is - withdrawn. 

Shy, quiet, trying to please everyones personality, covered up my true essence. Eventually, panic

 attacks and depression set me on a journey of self-discovery, healing and transformation. 

After coming home from work one day, upset, blaming myself for the panic attack that embarrassed me to the core, 

and that I suffered from all my life, I used the Emotional Freedom Technique to calm my nervous system, 

which allowed me to ask this question. 

"When was the very first time in my life I felt this panic?" 

A memory from childhood, stored in my subconscious mind, floated to the surface of my conscious mind,

 and I realized that an event that seemed mundane to my parents

 was a trauma for me. 

Immediately, I felt releif, as I finally stopped blaming myself for my behaviour. My panic and shyness were conditioned to me.

By synchronicity, two days later, I discovered Teal Swan's video "How to Heal the Emotional Body." 

Her information helped me transform my negative experiences into positive ones, 

releasing most of my childhood traumas that I was never aware of. 

Using her completion process and other techniques, my panic attacks gradually disappeared,

 and so did my anxiety, depression and lack of confidence. 

I used to think something was seriously wrong with me. But the moment I learned that it wasn't about

 what was wrong with me but rather about what happened to me, as Teal mentions in many of her

 videos, my self-hate vanished, and my quest toward self-love began.  

 My mission today is to help others understand how their conditioned perception profoundly influences their health, 

relationships, the quality of their lives, and how they too can recondition themselves to self-love and wellness.